I had forgotten this story and I can honestly say that when I remembered it today at work, I was thoroughly embarassed that I had. The following events were so influencial in my life and who I am today that a moment should never go by where I don't appreciate them. Unfortunately such is life. I have decided to blog it though so hopefully my experience will be with me always from now on. Here it goes:
God sent me an angel. I believe it with all of my heart.
I was upset. Stressed and frustrated with life and myself. I felt a holexisted and I kept trying to fill it but nothing I went after filled the gap. So I prayed. I prayed harder than I think I ever have. I asked that God show me what it was I was suppose to find. I asked God to remove all my doubt in Him and that he show me what I was looking for.
I forgot about it. I'll be honest. The moment passed. I was still in a crabby mood but in general I went to class and pushed forward. I forgot what I had asked until later that night. One of my lovely friends, Miss Jessica Dottl, dropped by my room and invited me to Ignite. I used the I have homework excuse to get myself out of it but a few minutes later she came back and said "I know you're suppose to go. That might sound weird but I know it'll make you feel better." So I changed my mind. I went to Ignite. Sat in the back nothing to fabulous until the guest speaker started to pray.
He prayed everything that was on my mind. He prayed about confusion and wanting to find the right path. He prayed for guidance. He repented his sins and lack of loyalty. His story matched mine and I broke down. It was a good experience but before you knew it, time was up.
The speaker dismissed us but said that those who wanted to stay and pray could. Normally I would have booked it. I am not comfortable throwing my hands up in the air to pray Jesus. I am actually often quite skeptical of those who are so outwardly expressive of their interaction with God. But for whatever reason, I was ready. I felt it. Everything was calm and peaceful and I knew that I would be ok going to the front to pray with those I had never met.
So I prayed. Jessica by my side. I poured my heart out as I had done before. I prayed for guidance and for that hole to finally be filled. Once they were finished praying, Jess looked at me and asked if I was ready to go. I agreed so she offered to run to our original seats and grab our stuff as I waited up front.
Before Jess came back, my angel showed up. She introduced her. Told me that she lived in the local area. I asked if she came to Ignite very often and she told me no. She told me that for just some reason tonight she just knew she had to go. She explained that she knew God wanted her to be here to guide someone. She didn't know who until she saw me across the room. When she did she said she just knew that she was suppose to pray for me.
So she asked if it would be okay to pray with me. Honestly, I thought she was a little loopy but I couldn't object so I took her hand and she began to pray.
This woman, that I have never met before, prayed my prayer almost work for word. The prayer that I prayed to God while standing in the front flowed out of her mouth like she was reading from a script. She answered my question. She said "you have been trying to fill the hole with frivilous things. God has been waiting for you to see Him as the plug rather than the person who will sell you the solution."
She was my angel. I asked for God to send me someone and He did. He loves me so much that He listened, and was patient, and sent me my angel.I left that night and I just felt different. I knew I had found Him. I found God and I realized that He had been sitting there the whole time waiting for me.
Since then I have ventured off the path. Lost sight of what's really important. When I'm stressed my emotions get the best of me. However for the most part I am at peace. I have found myself through finding God. I have let go of the bitterness and resentment I was carrying. I have gain a newfound courage to face my unrational fears. I am happy despite hardship.
I was skeptical and still find myself questioning if everything was only a mere coincidence....
HOWEVER THERE IS MORE TO MY STORY:
A few months after my "Jesus Moment," as I sometimes call it, I was upset about who knows what. I can't remember....anywoo, I started talking to God and expressing my doubt and anger. Asking question about the world, life, injustice, etc. I fired up. Once I simmered a bit and got my two cents out, I prayed that God remove that type of doubt from my head. I asked that He send me guidence.
I started back on my homework. About 10 minutes after my rant, there's a knock on the door. Expecting it to be Tyler or another usual face, I yelled "It's open." The door cracked open and a woman poked in her head. It took me a second to recognizer her, but it was my angel!
She explained that she had come back to Ignite the week following our first meeting, and when she didn't see me there, it confirmed to her that she was ment to meet me that first night, deliver God's message, and not see me again. However, early that day she said that she felt compelled to write me a letter and bring it to me.
She said she didn't think much of it. She just knew she was suppose to check in on me and make sure I was doing okay. Following the straight and narrow. She handed me an envelop and explained that she couldn't stay because her ride was waiting out by the parking lot. Before I knew it she was gone. I have no idea how she found me. I have thought of all the possibilities but have never truly figured it out.
I sat down that night and opened my envelop from her. It was very personal and something that I have chosen to keep close to myself however I will sat that it answered my prayers and provided me the guidance I was looking for.
I don't know if I'll ever see my angel again. Either way though, I know that the "big guy upstairs" is watching out for me.
Original Date: Aug. 6th, 2008 03:48 pm
God sent me an angel. I believe it with all of my heart.
I was upset. Stressed and frustrated with life and myself. I felt a holexisted and I kept trying to fill it but nothing I went after filled the gap. So I prayed. I prayed harder than I think I ever have. I asked that God show me what it was I was suppose to find. I asked God to remove all my doubt in Him and that he show me what I was looking for.
I forgot about it. I'll be honest. The moment passed. I was still in a crabby mood but in general I went to class and pushed forward. I forgot what I had asked until later that night. One of my lovely friends, Miss Jessica Dottl, dropped by my room and invited me to Ignite. I used the I have homework excuse to get myself out of it but a few minutes later she came back and said "I know you're suppose to go. That might sound weird but I know it'll make you feel better." So I changed my mind. I went to Ignite. Sat in the back nothing to fabulous until the guest speaker started to pray.
He prayed everything that was on my mind. He prayed about confusion and wanting to find the right path. He prayed for guidance. He repented his sins and lack of loyalty. His story matched mine and I broke down. It was a good experience but before you knew it, time was up.
The speaker dismissed us but said that those who wanted to stay and pray could. Normally I would have booked it. I am not comfortable throwing my hands up in the air to pray Jesus. I am actually often quite skeptical of those who are so outwardly expressive of their interaction with God. But for whatever reason, I was ready. I felt it. Everything was calm and peaceful and I knew that I would be ok going to the front to pray with those I had never met.
So I prayed. Jessica by my side. I poured my heart out as I had done before. I prayed for guidance and for that hole to finally be filled. Once they were finished praying, Jess looked at me and asked if I was ready to go. I agreed so she offered to run to our original seats and grab our stuff as I waited up front.
Before Jess came back, my angel showed up. She introduced her. Told me that she lived in the local area. I asked if she came to Ignite very often and she told me no. She told me that for just some reason tonight she just knew she had to go. She explained that she knew God wanted her to be here to guide someone. She didn't know who until she saw me across the room. When she did she said she just knew that she was suppose to pray for me.
So she asked if it would be okay to pray with me. Honestly, I thought she was a little loopy but I couldn't object so I took her hand and she began to pray.
This woman, that I have never met before, prayed my prayer almost work for word. The prayer that I prayed to God while standing in the front flowed out of her mouth like she was reading from a script. She answered my question. She said "you have been trying to fill the hole with frivilous things. God has been waiting for you to see Him as the plug rather than the person who will sell you the solution."
She was my angel. I asked for God to send me someone and He did. He loves me so much that He listened, and was patient, and sent me my angel.I left that night and I just felt different. I knew I had found Him. I found God and I realized that He had been sitting there the whole time waiting for me.
Since then I have ventured off the path. Lost sight of what's really important. When I'm stressed my emotions get the best of me. However for the most part I am at peace. I have found myself through finding God. I have let go of the bitterness and resentment I was carrying. I have gain a newfound courage to face my unrational fears. I am happy despite hardship.
I was skeptical and still find myself questioning if everything was only a mere coincidence....
HOWEVER THERE IS MORE TO MY STORY:
A few months after my "Jesus Moment," as I sometimes call it, I was upset about who knows what. I can't remember....anywoo, I started talking to God and expressing my doubt and anger. Asking question about the world, life, injustice, etc. I fired up. Once I simmered a bit and got my two cents out, I prayed that God remove that type of doubt from my head. I asked that He send me guidence.
I started back on my homework. About 10 minutes after my rant, there's a knock on the door. Expecting it to be Tyler or another usual face, I yelled "It's open." The door cracked open and a woman poked in her head. It took me a second to recognizer her, but it was my angel!
She explained that she had come back to Ignite the week following our first meeting, and when she didn't see me there, it confirmed to her that she was ment to meet me that first night, deliver God's message, and not see me again. However, early that day she said that she felt compelled to write me a letter and bring it to me.
She said she didn't think much of it. She just knew she was suppose to check in on me and make sure I was doing okay. Following the straight and narrow. She handed me an envelop and explained that she couldn't stay because her ride was waiting out by the parking lot. Before I knew it she was gone. I have no idea how she found me. I have thought of all the possibilities but have never truly figured it out.
I sat down that night and opened my envelop from her. It was very personal and something that I have chosen to keep close to myself however I will sat that it answered my prayers and provided me the guidance I was looking for.
I don't know if I'll ever see my angel again. Either way though, I know that the "big guy upstairs" is watching out for me.
Original Date: Aug. 6th, 2008 03:48 pm
This is truly a touching story, Alex. I think we can all learn from this. God does wonderful things! I would ask how you're doing, but after reading this, I know you're doing ok. Love you!
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